Mo' Emo

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Fickle heart,
Evil heart,
You want, you yearn,
Without discern.

At times I wish to tear you out,
To live my life without your clout.


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One Step Forward, Two Steps Back...

How weak the human heart can be.....

Ok.
So apparently I'm not as ok as I thought after my breakup.

Good:
1) Stopped my excessive boozing,
2) Started going back to the gym,
3) Trying to start dating again, and
4) Generally keeping busy.

Bad:
1) I am still not even close to actually feeling happy again.

It's terrible.
I am trying so hard to tell myself : "It's ok. Sadness/ Happiness is a choice. You can choose!"... but all that happens is that I end up:
a) best case scenario: numb, when successful, or
b) when I fail: still feeling sad.


I know this a pointless emo rant (which is far, far, faaaar from being a food review) but I just needed to let it out. Oh, and you know how sometimes you hear a song on the radio and think : "OMG. That's exactly how I feel?". Yeah, I found it:


Bloody hell.
*sigh*

J

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